So, this post has been really hard for me to get out of my head and into existence. I don’t think there’s a particular reason, it’s just taken me some time to figure out exactly what I was trying to say and how to say it. I had a couple of pretty lame ideas over the last several days –you almost got an up close and personal look at my fabrication fixture at work– but I finally figured it out. It came to me as I was taking my dogs out to go to the bathroom. I was walking them around, enjoying the coolness of the evening and rocking out to some fun music, when I was struck by a sudden feeling of calm. A lot of thoughts flashed through my mind at that moment, but one in particular stuck with me as something worth sharing. It was this:
It’s Gonna Be Ok
Yep. That’s it. That’s the idea that resonated with me so much this evening that I was able to burst through my writer’s block and get to work. Now let’s talk about why.
You see, this week has been pretty weird for me. Last weekend my sister came into town to grab stuff from my apartment for her abrupt –yet planned– move to New York City, I’ve had to figure out how to work around massive engineering issues at work (you have no idea how close you came to getting a post about that), and I’ve been fighting a weird fatigue that I just haven’t been able to shake. It’s been weird. Not bad, just weird, but as a result I’ve been struggling a lot with not knowing what to write about.
And by “struggling” I mean stressing myself way out.
Seriously. I’ve been totally fixated on the fact that I haven’t been able to write anything since last Saturday morning when I woke up and wrote “Be The Nicest Human.” It’s really been messing me up.
And as the week wore on and the writer’s block persisted, I started to question the point of the blog itself, my ability as a writer, the idea that I have anything of worth to say, and a billion other things. I’m not proud to admit it, but more than once this week I wondered whether I should just quit because, obviously, I’m not good enough to be doing this at all (thanks depression). But tonight, on a cool evening potty break with the dogs and with Goldfinger’s “Superman” blaring in my headphones, I realized that everything would be ok. And that felt really good. Suddenly I was able to recognize that my stress wasn’t permanent and that, in the long run, I have a 100% success rate in overcoming (or at least surviving) any obstacles that arise for me. I have no idea where it came from, but that simple realization made me feel way, way better.
So I want to share that feeling with you; because I think it’s an incredibly important –if really simple– point and because I know I’m not the only one who sometimes gets overwhelmed. Think about it, when was the last time you got super stressed or overwhelmed about work, or family, or the pandemic, or any of the other innumerable things that we as humans worry about. If you’re anything like me it probably wasn’t that long ago. Maybe you’re even there right now. I just want to take this opportunity to remind you that it’s all good. You’re going to be ok.
So, yeah. That’s it for this time. I know its simple, but I think it’s crucially important that we remind ourselves every once-in-a-while that everything’s going to be ok. Because, honestly, it is.
Thanks for reading, you’ve got this,